To Spend, or Not to Spend....

That really is the question I am faced with right here, right now.

Last year I bought a little fishing boat--a 16" flats boat. Nothing fancy, it just does the job for me and it allows me to fly fish where very few others can. The problem is that the way it is tied in the water, well...it takes a fucking pounding. Last year a spring and bow line broke during a nor'easter and the little fucker smacked up against a piling for a good 20 hours. A few months later I got to witness a squall come flying in out of nowhere and waves actually break over the bow. I decided then that I had to find a better solution, and I did. Drive on Docking, which will allow me to drive my boat, the same way you would a jet ski or ski-do, out of the water by going up a ramp and coming to rest on top of a floating dock. It's fucking sick. The whole boat will sit on floating rubber cubes. But it costs some $$$$$$$$. To me, it seems very reasonable and it is well within the figure I had in my head when I began to look into it.

My old man says that the world is coming to an end (he JUST figured this out) and I should save every penny I can. He passed on throwing me a few shekels to build it out a bit bigger and allow us to tie up another boat or kayak or whatever off on the side....

So there is the dilemma. Do I spend or do I save...and does it really fucking matter?? I constantly am thinking of the play, Annie. I swear to fucking God. Believe me, I am not Daddy Warbucks..I don't pull down 7 figures, that is for sure..but I remember the irony of how he lived during the depression and how the rest of society did. I am feeling very weird about the whole thing because I save my money and I don't have debt but I don't want to spend. I feel like if I spend, karma will fuck me faster than 2 monkeys in heat.

Now throw in one more twist. The markets are going lower. There is NOTHING going on out there. Next week starts the conference beat...where every firm that is left standing gets these lying retards, err...CEO's to come out from under their desks, stand erect rather than turteling under their desks, and then try to coyly tell the attendees how bad or good things are. My guess is that people will be running from the rooms about midway through the presentations screaming "SELL" into their cell phones.

So the tape is going lower, my conscious is saying not to do it, BUT I REALLY FUCKING WANT THIS!! I work hard, and dammit why am I getting fucked again by this whole shit bag financial mess???

Ugh...so I put up the poll to the right. Go ahead, cast your vote. Help me make a decision here.